Last week I couldn’t write a diary as I was sitting on the mountain.
The cat goddess was our companion.
“I am the power of the cat goddess. In Egypt they called me Bastet. I was worshipped as the goddess of love and fertility.
I was also worshipped as the goddess of joy and dance and festivals.
I stand for the power of life, concentration and connection.
As a black panther, my ancestors live in the primeval forests of the Andes. As a tiger, lion and cheetah, you will find me spread across the continents. As a lynx, I can still be found in Europe today.
“I possess the power of a high spiritual presence.”
It was a wonderful companion card for me.
I have four days of vision quest behind me. Accompanied by Arkan Lukswala and his wife Marilyn, we were sent up the “mountain” for our vision quest after preparing ourselves with prayers in a sweat lodge. It was a festive setting in which our vision quest took place, accompanied by many helpers. Markus, our water expert from Tamera, was also on the mountain and Laura and Friedemann had traveled there to support me.
There I sat, sometimes in great heat, then again in a mighty thunderstorm, at my place, which was framed by a protective band of about 1.70 × 1.70.
I have probably never experienced the open gate into the spiritual world for such a long time.
I was anchored in the matrix of peace. There was a power of peace with me that was overwhelming.
I had two woolen blankets and a poncho with me, nothing else.
Like a cat, I sat there, always prepared for surprises, but also in great serenity and presence. When the rain came, I rolled up my blankets, sat on them to protect them from the wet and covered myself with the poncho, a wonderful piece of hand-woven wool dyed with natural colors from alpaca wool.
It gave me enough protection from the rain, even when I got wet.
My biggest challenge was the invasion of mosquitoes. Sometimes I had about 30 mosquitoes on my face at the same time.
“Why are you reacting to the mosquitoes like this when you know it’s going to be over soon?” the spiritual world asked me.
I felt that it wasn’t the mosquitoes that were causing my helpless reactions, I even saw a picture of the mosquito deva in front of me with my eyes closed. It was the unresolved issue of inner helplessness. Inside me came a wave of pain and sadness about how people feel in Palestine, Ukraine, Sudan, Cameroon and many other places on earth and I can’t help.
A sea of tears came out of me.
For a long time I knew that I had to face the issue of how it feels when you can’t intervene, when you feel powerless and helpless and close to losing faith in a better world.
Staying anchored in the peace matrix in uncertainty was one of the greatest lessons I received.
I received many answers on how to act in those exact moments to stay with the force.
I felt wonderfully accompanied and protected by the sun, the earth and the spiritual helpers. I can say that it was a personal love that connected me with them. I received many new answers for my tasks in the world and in Tamera.
Now it is a matter of gradually integrating all these visions into my life.
Thank you to everyone who sat with me in their places.
Thanks to Marilyn and Arkan for how they held and accompanied this time for us. I was able to experience the soul of the water and sun in powerful force and how much we are part of how much help comes to us from the earth and elements when we seek them out with pure and clear intention.
I will now collect the harvest bit by bit, especially regarding the input on Palestine and Tamera, the stone circle and our helpers on site.